So we've been married for more than a week already, right? We're so happy it's scary. But in a good way. I have noticed that he's even more patient and understanding with my little quirks (hehehe). And I have been... I don't know. So here I am, googling "duties of a wife."

from The Happy Husband:

Make your personal appearance as beautiful as possible for your husband. Your dress may be calico, but it should be neat. While hair dye is not advisable, the eyebrows may be improved by a slight application.
          - OK, I know that most men hate it when their woman cut their hair when they get married and have kids. But cutting my hair short is JAPO's idea. So there. I don't need hair dye and my eyebrows are fine with the plucking and threading and shaving. And what the hell is calico?

Make every attempt to spend wisely the dole your husband offers for household expenses. Purchase with care.
          - I don't know anything about money. JAPO does the budgeting part. =)

Whatever the day's circumstances, greet your husband with a smile.
          - The greeting with the smile is no problem. It's the keeping the smile on that's a bit harder when my ranting gets the better of me. I can work on that. *takes down notes*

Do not estimate your husband by his ability to make display. His employment may not be favorable for fine show, but his superior qualities of mind and heart are all that matter.
          - Money has never been an issue. We married for love. The sex is great too. Just saying. =) Haha!

In your husband's dealing with his employees he is in the habit of giving commands and being obeyed. In his absentmindedness the same dictatorial spirit may possess him at home, so avoid all disputes until he gains his senses.
          - Avoid all disputes until he gains his senses - I should have learned of this sooner. Tsk.

Maintain dignity in public with your husband. Loud talk or laughter, pointing, running, allowing your skirt to drag or sucking on your parasol handle all show bad manners.
          - I am sure that he wouldn't mind loud talk or laughter from me when we are in public. Running, maybe not. The clumsy clown that I am, I'm sure that I'll injure myself somehow, and he'll hate that. I rarely wear a skirt and I don't have a parasol. Tsk.

Do not use profanity, slang, or words of double meaning that will bring the blush to your husband.
          - Now I'm just lost.

This is a list from 1883, by the way. But I'm having trouble looking for a more updated list. Other lists I found are too religious or is for Hindus. I'll try to look for more next time.

Not a lot of people understand why I stay friends with my ex. It's no surprise, really, since noone even really understood why we got together in the first place. I've tried to explain our relationship to people, but it got to that point where it's just easier not to.

My ex is not one of my best friends. He's not even a close friend. Nor a special friend. But we're not just friends. He says we're friends who got together who became exes then became friends again. I say we're... friends.

So here are some of the reasons why (insert blog entry title here):

I can tell my ex anything and he would agree, even if he doesn't really understand. He makes me feel that he does, and that's what's important to me. Regardless of the words I use, he hears what I really want to say. Which is a good thing because I hate it when people use my own words against me when I don't even put that much importance on being consistent. I have a right to change my mind and my views and to retract whatever comes out of my mouth. So there.

My ex is glad to hear from me even when I haven't called, nor texted, him for months. It doesn't matter if I only called/texted him because I'm in some kind of trouble (haha!). He makes me feel that it's not a big deal if I live my life without having to maintain my relationship with him. He makes me feel that our relationship is more than forwarded SMS and YM chats and having each other on our Friendster lists.

We can talk about the things we've gone through, laugh at all the misadventures, get kilig at all the kilig moments, and get a bit sad on the not-so-good memories without the emotional baggage. He doesn't make me feel guilty about anything that I (may) have done to hurt him. He doesn't make me feel that I could have done more for us. He doesn't make me feel bad that we had no choice but to part ways.

My ex is someone I can tell everything to without the fear of being judged; without having to worry that he might think the reason I'm telling him stuff is because I want to get back with him; without getting scolded like a little girl for all the "bad things" I have done; without having to deal with indifference just because I am an adult and I should already know how to handle my life.

I honestly believe that I can do no wrong in his eyes.

More importantly, he has supported my relationship with JAPO for a long time. He has been a crying shoulder whenever things got crappy between me and the fiance. He listens to me rant, tries to make me feel better, then makes suggestions on how to patch things up with the beloved. He knows that I am happy with the decisions that I have made and he reminds me of this whenever I seem to forget.

He wants me to be happy.

These are some of the reasons why. I rant about this because, for the past few days, I needed to hear from people in my life and most of them have disappointed me. I love and appreciate them still, but it makes me realize, among other things, that I need my ex to keep me sane.

I have always said that the reason I didn't go through the typical "depression" when we broke up is because I lost a boyfriend, I did not lose AK.

Makes me think if I have to lose people in some ways for me not to ever lose them again.

Since October 2003, JAPO and I have been together. Like most, if not all, relationships, ours is far from perfect. There were petty and major fights, break-ups and making ups, days of bliss and nights in hell. Saying that it was a roller-coaster ride won’t even be fair. It was that and Rio Grande, Flying Fiesta and Anchors Away at the least. And if me and JAPO being together was a typhoon, “ambon lang si Milenyo at Rosing”.

But in all fairness to me and the rest of my personalities, I was dead certain that I want to marry him early in our third year of being boyfriend-girlfriend. I just didn’t want to admit it because that’s like saying I was totally in love with someone other than myself.

Then one day, I just woke up and everything was about him. I didn’t care what other people thought - I didn’t even care what I thought. In a weird way, making my life all about him made me the happiest bitch in the world.

And every single day, I wished and hoped that I make him even half as happy as I am because of him. There was a constant feeling of dread that I won’t measure up. I was forever paranoid about waking up without him.

Until our 4th anniversary, that is. =)

I was in total shock. It’s a freaking blur, I swear. The waiter taking our picture. Him kneeling on one knee. The most beautiful ring ever. Me crying. And laughing too. It was unbelievable.

Unbelievable because I never thought that he would propose. For the past year, getting married has become an understatement. A proposal, I thought, was just going to be a formality of some sort. I mean, I secretly wished for it like any person with the XY chromosomes, but I didn’t think our relationship needed one. As long as he marries me, proposal or no proposal, I would have been fine with it.

So the proposal was BIG. For me and, I’m sure, for him as well. Might be bigger for him, actually. =) Hihi.

I have this to say to every boyfriend out there. If you want your girlfriend to have peace of mind, propose. It works wonders. Haha!

Seriously, I didn’t expect that being engaged will bring something different into the relationship. But it does. Even if we were acting like we were already married before the engagement, being “technically” engaged makes things so much - erm - easier, I guess. It made things a lot less complicated.

Now I know that a diamond ring does not guarantee that nothing will go wrong ’til the wedding day itself, no matter how pretty and precious it is. BUT it does take away a lot of negative feelings and hangups and what-have-me’s. Let me put it this way, whenever I see it, which is very often, it reminds me of how much JAPO loves me enough to do something that he knows would make me very, very happy and secure.

Also, I am so touched with all the messages I have received from friends when they heard the news. So to all of you, Thank you very much. We can’t invite you all to the wedding, as we want it to be an intimate ceremony, but we’ll send out word for the post-wedding parties. =) And no, we’re not pregnant. Tsk.

*** posted on Wordpress blog: November 12, 2007 ***

I stumbled upon this article somewhere and thought it was worth sharing. =p Hihi.

You Are Not My Friend by Joel Stein

I "revived" my Wordpress blog that Gracelle made for me... for reasons that I have posted on said blog. =p So visit me there sometime.. Hihi. Here's the most recent post... a sampler if you will. Hahaha!

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i was in the shower a few hours ago and suddenly thought about love. about how one can say that he is in love. or not. whether it’s just infatuation. maybe lust. or something else.

japo makes me happy in a lot of ways. but it’s not the things he do that make me love him. other guys could have done or given more than he can, but i don’t think i will love anyone else the same way i love japo. i just know. and yet, i can’t give a reason why… i just do.

it gives me a headache trying to figure out why he loves me too. is it because i take care of him? because we are passionate for the same things? because of the sex? because of how much we have in common? because i was the one present when he was ready to settle down? because he couldn’t get rid of me, even when he kinda wanted to? i don’t think i’ll ever know. whenever i ask him, he can’t give me a clear answer as well.

and then there’s that feeling and idea i always have about “ex-people” (e.g. the ex-boyfriend and other guys who i had sort of relationships with)… did they ever really “love” me? how can they be sure? if i ask them now, can they give me an answer and enlighten me?

i honestly do not think so. it makes me a little sad, actually. just because i’m not sure if anyone really felt something deeper than wanting to kiss me or having a fascination with the way i think.

but who am i to say that? i can’t even explain why i love the man i’m going to marry in the first place. *shrugs*

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Oh, and congrats to the Green Archers for winning the last DLSU-ADMU game this season. =D ANIMO LA SALLE!!!

I grabbed the idea from Ruby's blog. =)

So what you do is you Google "YourName likes to" (with the quotation marks) and put in comments and stuff. Haha. It can be pretty hilarious. Just post the top 10 Search Results. Enjoy!


April likes to frequent Chicago, Los Angeles and New York.
I WILL. I have only been in those places in my daydreams. =p It will be Chicago for Oprah and the museum, Los Angeles for Kobe, and New York for New York.

April likes to camp, hike, read, garden and practice photography.
Camp - check. Hike - check. Read - double check. Garden - a big X. Photography - struggling check. =p

April likes to jog, ski, cook, sew, paint, and read.
Jog - slash. Ski - n/a. Cook - n/a (Haha!). Sew - slash (i can do cross stitch and needlepoint, that's why =p).  Paint - X (i can only do Crayola). Read - triple check.

April likes to rock and roll in person.
*blinks* I don't think so. I'm a very calm person. Harrr.

April likes to participate in cross-country races with her Arabian horse, Sheba.
LOL. =D I will not name a horse "Sheba". Tsk.

April likes to do paper crafts and other crafty things.
That is correct. =) I like anything that involves scissors, and glue, and things that make the floor all dirty and fun to look at.

April likes to swim and Sam plays golf.
I don't know how to swim and I don't even know anyone named Sam. Hahaha!

April likes to meet her clients so the first year, she prefers that you make an appointment and sit down with her.
A few of the Search Results turned up "Dr. April" stuff. Errr...

April likes to treat patients with a variety of movement disorders, dystonia, post-stroke paralysis, and radiculopathy or nerve entrapment.
See?

Each player starts with 7 random habits/facts about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!
 

1. Even before I met Japo, I have always wanted my wedding date to be August 8, 2008. I used to spend hours in the shower trying to think of ways to convince my parents that it's okay for me to get married at age 24. Haha. I didn't and haven't even had a boyfriend then.

2. In the first couple of years in college, I had "flavors of the month". =p It was my way of coping with not being able to date anyone because I was in an exclusive-ish relationship with my ex. Only one "flavor" was the "flavor" for several months. Hahahaha.

3. Back in high school, I quit the volleyball team in third year because I wanted to join the Basketball Club. Most of my crushes in high school were members of the Basketball Club. I was supposed to be varsity for women's basketball that year also, but did not go through with it because one of my crushes asked me not to. He didn't want to see me get hurt daw. Aaaaawww. Landeh. =p

4. I was Feature Editor of the school paper on senior year. But I got into the Regional Press Conference for Editorial Writing. After that, I always bullied Monette (the Ed-in-Chief that got into Nationals for Feature Writing) that I should be Chief and she be Feature. Haha.

5. My first boyfriend was the sixth guy I have kissed. =p

6. Japo was the eighteenth. @@ Haha.

7. I slapped a classmate when I was in fourth grade because he touched the Baby All Gone I brought to school. I thought I didn't slap him that hard but he cried and tried to punch me. I think I slapped him again because of that. It was my first trip to the Principal's Office.


This was harder than the weird things thingy! Tsk. I had so many "randomness" to choose from. Turns out that the guy-related stuff comes to mind first. Harrr.

And so I tag... *drumroll*

1. Ruby
2. Patrick
3. Aisa
4. Nikki
5. Alex
6. Tata
7. Hanna

i was invited to join Flixster, a movie community of some sort, and the reason i'm promoting it is because i love their never-ending quiz. yun lang. hahahaha!

di ko mapost yung movieboard ko on this blog, but you can check it out on my Friendster profile. =)

anyways, japo and i had a day out yesterday. we spent the day in SM Mall of Asia shopping for clothes and eating steaks and waffles and pizza and pasta and ice cream. hello carbs. tsk. after that, i had to go to work as trade-on for Mapple.. japo had to be in QC anyway so i thought i'd spend the night in the office na lang. when i got home this morning, japo was just on his way back from QC. so ayun. nag takeout na lang muna ako ng breakfast from Chowking, and when i got back, andun na sya. =) we watched Game 1 of the NBA Finals, and before the game was over, nakatulog na 'ko. zzzzz...

wala lang. share ko lang. hahaha!

i can so not write anything when i'm giddy. hahahahaha!

I wonder why some people choose to repress their emotions rather than show it. I am a firm believer that every moment spent with people you care about should not be wasted on unsaid words. 'Cos unsaid words mean nothing. They weren't meant to be said. If you don't say it, you don't really want to say it.

Thus, I am an affirmation addict. I need to be told, or showed at least, that I am special. That I am this. That I am that. I KNOW I am. But still I want to be sure that they know it too.

Because if they don't, what does that make me? WHO does that make me? How can they love someone they don't really know? And if, in some weird way they care about someone other than who I think I am, how could they have known this "person" without me knowing her first?

Bottom-line: the me I know needs to be constantly told or showed that she is loved. And honestly, I prefer words rather than actions. 'Cos actions can be misinterpreted (and then I'll have no one else to blame but myself) unlike words which can be saved in the wonderful storage facility that is my brain. Or better yet, in my cellphone or computer or journal where they can easily be filed for future reference.

I like words. I like them a lot. Aside from the memories they continuously create for me, they also provide snapshots of moments that seem to not have existed. Only words from the past can lift happy thoughts from the muck of an indifferent reality at present.

But then, words make me talk too much.

*** This is the first time i have posted something on this Multiply blog. VERY weird feeling. i thought I won't use this. Ever. Pero si Sheenah kase e. Tsk. =p

Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about you. People who got tagged need to write a blog entry of their own 6 weird things. They should as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

1. When traveling by car, I make sure that the door nearest me is locked. I am terrified of unlocked car doors. Lately lang nawala yung fear ko of unlocked doors. Kahit anong door. As long as I'm inside "something", I want the door to be locked. But windows are okay.

2. When I go to the beach, I try to stay as far from the ocean as possible. I believe that swimming should be done only in pools. Unless I get really drunk and silly and then I develop a fascination for sand na naman and malalaman ko na lang mga ginawa ko kinabukasan ulit.

3. When I was young, my mom taught me this "thing" - that whenever there's a big, strange dog in your path, you should call on Señor San Pedro (in your head lang, of course), the patron saint of dogs (ata). The dog should then not hurt you. And it's really weird cos it rarely fails. That, or dogs just like me.

4. I don't like wearing accessories much kase I tend to touch them when I feel uncomfortable. And knowing that I'll touch them when I feel uncomfortable makes me feel uncomfortable. TSK.

5. I had a phase when I was allergic to the color pink.

6. Knives make me feel good. I get into a trance whenever I hold a knife. (Psycho in the making? Ack.)

There. Now I feel like I'm obliged to use this blog more. Hahahahaha. All Trance's fault. =p

And now, I'm tagging... Hmmmm. Ok, who hasn't been tagged in my network yet?!

~ Jan Patrick
~ Van
~ Nikki
~ Jonas
~ Alex
~ Kreng

There you go. =)

had this beautiful blog (thanks again, ginokins) for more than a year. lots of drama. lots of nonsense. lots of me.

but for the past few months, lots of me doesn't feel like it can be contained in this space anymore. the me now, well, let's say they have clothes on. =p see-through, yes. but still, clothes. i cannot be too naked this time. being naked attracts too much attention, it seems. "false" attention at that.

and besides, i cannot break gracelle's heart and put her New Year's gift to me up in a cybershelf for safekeeping. =) so goodbye to this purty blog i love. *hugs you one last time* thanks for the laughs, the tears, the memories and all the crazy thoughts that ran through our pretty little heads. i'll see you some time.

and because i finally got some free time for ranting here in the office, i will. harhar!

the company nurse told me that i need voice rest for today so i only have "admin work"... which turned out to be an hour of coaching with Win, cutting out coaching scheds for the rest of the team, plotting out calls due to passwords not received by travelers that i received for this month, and finding someone to swap scheds with for this coming Monday (Galera for team building - yay! =D). the last of which is still not accomplished. grrr.

i saw on TV, just an hour ago in the pantry while having lunch, that dolphins - the most adorable creatures in the sea (lion cubs on land) - are in SM Mall of Asia. @@ i am planning to go there today. bwahahaha! *twirls* i am so excited! haven't seen dolphins up close for the longest time.

just sent an email to OILAGAN (whoever she is) for the swap thing. all the other agents told me they have to "think about it" since my shift starts at midnight. my "ayaw mo no'n? your day ends at 9am! *smile smile*" is not working, apparently. tsk. or maybe cos they're mostly female. mmm.

*pouts* i so want to check the forums but Win told me that i shouldn't because there are auditors on the floor right now checking stuff. hmpf.

so updates. hmmm... well, everything's good. work's okay, especially that it will be payday tomorrow and the 13th month thing is coming next week. =p just sucks that i missed the Spring Fling account anniv party last Saturday which i heard was so fun (there were 400 bottles of beer left and the guests were FORCED to have them @@). oh well, i can go to Fashion Fusion year-end party still. i just have to check with japo if he can come cos i can bring 1 guest.. i already have something to wear! haha! and lately, i'm loving the environment here in the office. i just realized that it's so laid back. you call your "superiors" by their first name (even the company president!) and everything's, for lack of a better term, cool. i really hope things for the trainorship will develop early next year before i get bored.

and then there's japo. japo japo japo. hahahaha! he has transferred to Arellano University for Law. hihihi! magkasama na kami dito sa Makati in short =D i'm loving the fact that even if we are together most of our free time, we still end up missing each other whenever he's in school and i at work. feeling ko crush na din nya ako talaga. hahahahaha!

AND we are getting cable in the condo this week!!! finally! i haven't watched a single Lakers game since the season started! and then there's Animal Planet and Disney. and ETC and JACK. i miss Leno, Letterman, Stewart and O'Briaaaeeenn =p oooohhh.. love love love cable @@

*smiles as already made appointment with cable guy this Thursday*

gracelle says we're getting DSL connection soon also. can't wait for the time when we do not have to use our prepaid credits to call Yellow Cab, Goodah, Chowking, etc for food delivery. and that we do not have to leave the unit to go online.

the parents are fine, just that daddy is getting the cold frequently and mom's getting on my case again lately. but i'm sure it's cos she loves me.. my "grad picture" is on display in her office. all in its framed 8R glory. tsk. my mom's weird. i think she started loving me more when i started messing things up. she doesn't seem to like anything ideal, typical. oooh. maybe i got that from her.

faye's trying harder in school. i like to think that it is because i "talked" to her about the things i wished i could have done better when i was her age - and not because i promised her really nice Christmas presents if she gets good grades. and jonas, i believe, is going to try out for the varsity this sem - my conclusion from the "wag mong dadalhin playing shorts ko sa Makati!!!" spiel from her before i left home last weekend. i hope she gets in. i know she can. =) i am so excited to take her out and the rest of the family to Happy Feet on IMAX soon. hihi.

gracelle - wag na lang. hahahaha! naaah, i'm really happy that she's THAT happy. for the longest time, i prayed, wished, and waited for the day that she will get out of the rut that she was in. but now, her continuous ranting and analysis of something SO FRIGGIN' SIMPLE reminds me that i really should be careful of what i wish for. hahahaha! good thing i have nette and japo to share this overwhelming state of bliss grace's having. we love her too much. hahahahaha!

anyway, anna and jaena had their 22nd birthdays this month.. =) anna had pics of her and boyfriend touring Veeeeiiigas, and she looks so happy. jaena and i had messages exchanged in Friendster and she says she'll be home next year. weee!!! i heard anna's going home soon too. =) both asked me to let them know way, WAY in advance about my wedding date. hahahahaha! so i guess i have 2 confirmed slots for guests already. =p

and then there's Go LB!, launched a few weeks ago. the yUPieLBi Articles Section slash eLBizen Blog. am loving the idea that the forums is growing up so fast.. and that all of it started barely 2 years ago. *sigh* ang bilis nga naman talaga ng panahon..

so there. now, i just have to figure out how i am going to see the dolphins and not end up sick for tomorrow's shift. and how i am going to convince japo that i really, really want to go see them and that i will not complain of a headache if i don't get enough sleep. hmmm... shift's over in 10 minutes. gotta run home. =)


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the dolphins will have to wait. next time na lang daw sabi ni japo.. huhuhu..

ay wait! pinapatawag na nya ako Mall of Asia ngayon. hihihi! =)

7 months ago i wouldn't have thought that i will be "here". i have a job that i totally enjoy, am in control of most aspects of my life, the family's doing great, daddy got me a new puppy, and my relationship with japo has never been better. everything is in place.

i am so freaking scared.

doesn't help that christmas is just around the corner. the holidays make me feel "obligated" to be happy. the pressure gets to me so bad i end up putting a lot of effort to not be "too happy". being too happy was never good for me, i start to doubt things.

can't wait for the new year. new years always make me feel a lot better.

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p.s.
i do love christmas day.. but i never liked the christmas season. a lot of things get so hyped up. and most gestures seem a bit too fake. *shrugs*

35th monsary. i feel great, great, GREAT. =D

he got into the condo around 4pm, i think.. good thing i was already well rested when he came despite me spending the morning watching Amazing Race 10's premiere episode (love the cheerleaders! =p) anyway, we had lunch at Keisha's (sisig and nilagang baka =p) then had my eyebrows fixed then went to sleep again..

we woke up around 630pm with basil's invites on my phone. told him about it and he okayed which was totally unexpected.. =) it was invites for free facials!!! hahahaha!!!in less than an hour, we were already in Trafalgar Plaza with basil, getting cleansed and toned and moisturized. hahahaha! it was so funny being all kikay with japo.. =D he even put on tinted moisturizer! =p hahahaha! happy, happy thoughts. =)

and then we went to Duets Bistro to meet up with his DLSU-D friends.. one turned out to work in PS too so it was fun chatting about our beloved company! =p *giggles* downside was that i had to leave early cos i stil had to go to work but it was really, really fun.

not to mention that i was able to "penetrate", even for a bit, that "untouchable" little world of Dasma that he has. =p bwahahahaha! i don't know. call me crazy. it just feels nice to know for sure that some people from "that world" know that i exist. =p harhar.

35 months. =) who would have thought.

*sigh* =)

"i don't remember having started anything.. so why does it feel like something ended?" ~30mar06~

a) i am the most selfish creature on earth. i want to have the best of ALL worlds.. i do not want to settle for anything less than what i think, and believe, i can have.. noone has the right to deprive me of the attention i crave..

b) i am too generous. i want to share every piece of me to everyone who needs it.. even if it's the "right" thing to "not do" things, i cannot help but want to make the people i care about happy in whatever way i can..

c) my ego has gone out of control. these people are not supposed to function without me.. how dare they move on with their lives?!

d) the "what ifs" refuse to be ignored. shoulda woulda coulda.. might have beens.. messes me up.. i am so not the "what if" type of girl..

e) inggitera lang talaga ako. why do other people get the attention and i don't? i had it before, anyway..

f) the world conspires against me. some people who i think acted "worse" are treated better than i am.. i haven't done anything THAT wrong.. why am i getting this kind of karma?!

g) there's this possibility that i was never special. i'm only a whole lot of things because i have a multiple personality disorder..

h) i'm depressed. and holding on to this sense of confusion makes me feel that my life has more possibilities than i have, consciously and unconsciously, restricted it to.. in this state of mind, i almost believe that maybe it has more to it than what it seems like to me most of the time..

i should leave analyzing my psyche to gracelle.. saves me from at least one major headache.

i'm not sure whether it should be disturbing that i find temporary comfort in slamming doors and breaking glass. or that i can only write whenever i am "not feeling well".

so i'll try to make this a happy/optimistic/cheerful entry... bear with me.

why do i "not like" the sound of that last sentence?

anyway, updates: for my birthday, i was in elbi at nanay's wake. it was sad, of course. the mood picked up a bit the next day when japo took me out for lunch at Indio's (LOVE their sisig talaga and apple juice!) plus we also had siomai at Papu's.. *twirls*

friday night of that week, i went out with mom, dad, jonas, and faye for dinner. we had a mini seafood party at Bahia near Mall of Asia. i'm not sure what the location is exactly. i was never good with directions and geography. anyway, it was so fun cos they have fireworks at Mall of Asia every friday and saturday night so we were able to have that as background.. =p faye had so much fun. and it was a good thing that the display was over already when it started to rain.. faye almost drenched some middle aged woman with her antics. laugh trip! =D then mom and i shopped for bread at Pan de Manila. t'was fun. =)

and then i picked up abrie for the weekend so that she can attend nanay's funeral that sunday. she so likes me. *smug smile* harhar. at the funeral, i was able to meet the in-laws and the extended family.. t'was fun too. weird - but fun.

for japo's birthday, we went to Mall of Asia (finally!) to check it out. it was a celebration for my birthday, his birthday, and my 3rd month appraisal at work he said. we had a blast. =D had late lunch at Highlands Steakhouse where the steaks are SU.PERB! it could have been better if it wasn't cloudy that afternoon cos the resto had a GREAT view of manila bay's sunset.. maybe we'll catch it next time. after lunch, we had a semi-shopping spree while waiting for the movie. i think i waited 2 freaking months for Superman Returns.. BUT it was all worth the wait, catching it on imax =) i was trying to convince japo that Ant Bully is imax-worthy too but all i got was a "no.", i don't think i can get him to say yes to that idea. *pouts* Dinosaurs For The Cretaceous or something seems to appeal to him, though. but i don't want to be watching gigantic reptiles on imax. tsk. Happy Feet will be on imax too, i think. maybe japo will say yes to that. cute penguins! if not, i'll watch it with jonas. she adores penguins. and maybe i'll bring faye along too. and mom and dad. *computes ticket price for whole fam* good luck. harrrr. hahahaha.

after Mall of Asia, we went straight to The Library.. didn't have much fun there. there was a show and maybe it could have been funner if it wasn't "routine". maybe that's the one who spoiled my mood for the following days. the comedians weren't very funny. some people i know in elbi are funnier.

and then after that, everything just - changed, i think. i'm still not sure whether it's a good or a bad thing.

i was chatting with gracelle earlier. i love her. =) wahahaha. she can so simplify whatever twisted situation my mind gets in. and for that, i will not get married anytime soon because she tells me that she will cry the whole day if i do. =p i don't want a crying maid of honor on my freaking wedding! the horror. hahahahaha.

so there. updates. writing all that seems to lift some "negative energy"..

*adds blogging happy thoughts to slamming doors and breaking glass*

nanay's gone. she passed away saturday morning.

it was more than enough to silence that selfish brat who posed to wreck havoc for this week.

of course it was.